Parenting

Last night you were laughing in your sleep, you do this a lot my happy little man. I started thinking about the different kinds of laughs you were sure to share as you got older. Kind ones, mean ones, happy ones and distancing ones- the ones easterners ( well, the Scottish ones anyway) are famous for, when things are bad and you have to in order to get by. The last ones I hope you seldom make, the kind ones I hope to have a part in provoking, happy ones, I’m sure there will be plenty…and the mean ones? We are human and I know sometimes we weaken, even a golden boy like you. I only hope that I can provide an example by being as kind as possible to everyone around me. I wish for you true strength, the kind that comes from knowing you are loved and deserving of your space here. It’s only on that basis that we can treat those around us with respect. This applies to the way others will treat you- it saddens me to even imagine anyone ever hurting you, but it is inevitable. I just hope that you remember that anyone that hurts you is simply hurting, may compassion outweigh anger. You should also understand the boundaries of compassion, and I guess forgiveness- neither of these mean you should stay involved in a situation that harms you. You simply move on, with yourself intact and don’t spend energy on hate or vengence. Have I always lived like this? No, but I hope you will be better than me.

A lot of pressure on a five month old baby, right? A lot of pressure on anyone, again you won’t always remember to live like this,and that is okay- just try and the other times you can blame me.